I've been thinking about writing an article after seeing this guy. I was lazy as usual and didn't do it until now. This article is to clear my mind, ever since we met we had many good memories, there are things and feelings that I have never had with other guys before. There are many concerns as well. And the concerns keep popping up to a point I don't know how to solve and how long I can take. Based on my previous record, I'd keep seeing this person until I can't imagine with him in the rest of my life, and I will pull the trigger and tell him, sorry this is not working. And deep inside I would know clearly that we have no future. For this guy, from the beginning, I know our future is vague. I want to list out all the concerns first, maybe the way I list them is not romantic at all, but it's what I need right now. So here we go:
Movie: It seems so silly that seeing a movie could be a problem in a relationship. But surprisingly it does. When normal things could happened easily among other couples but couldn't happen between you, something is wrong about it. We've been seeing each other for almost five months, and strangely we have never seen a real movie in movie theater. Knowing movie is one of his favorite things in the world and we couldn't make it happen, this thing has bothered me months. We finally set the date to watch the everyone's favorite, Avengers, this Sunday. And not until last night he told me he saw it with his friend last afternoon but will go see it with me one more time on Sunday. The whole conversation that we had last night concerns me so much that I finally wanted to spill every worry that I have here.
